prenatal screenings & lottery tickets

this afternoon is my amniocentesis appointment.  i'm a little nervous about the whole thing.

not so much about the procedure itself - though i doubt it will be much fun to be poked in the belly with a v. large needle.  but i'm assuming they'll numb everything up enough that the pain will be all psychological, not physical.  and i'm not overly concerned about miscarrying as a result -- there's something like a 99.8% chance that won't happen.

but i do worry about the results.  which is kind of silly, but at the same time, its hard not to.

i mean, the reason that i'm having the procedure done is because i'm over 35 and that puts me in a higher risk category, according to the medical powers-that-be.  but still.  just according to random statistics, there's about a 99% chance that there is nothing wrong, i.e. no genetic defects.  and i'm making myself feel better by telling myself that the fact that i got pregnant immediately -- and i mean IMMEDIATELY -- suggests that overall my eggs are a good bit healthier than the average 38 year-old.  so i probably in fact have a much better than 99% chance of there being no problem.

the thing is -- i never think i'm going to be the one lucky person out of however many hundreds or thousands who's going to win the lottery.  why do i think i'll be the one unlucky woman out of however many hundreds who ends up carrying a down's syndrome baby?  but i guess it's human nature to worry.  or at least it's my nature.  i keep telling myself -- if you think you're that special, why not go buy a lottery ticket?

still, it will be nice when it's all over.

Comments

[Megan]

I like the lottery ticket idea. :)

Wishing you well with your appointment, and all good news in the results!